Monday 30 April 2018

I can do it

Yesterday

THIS IS MY 504TH POST MEANING I PASSED 500 LIKE 4 DAYS AGO OMGGGG BEEN DOING THIS FOR TOO FUCKING LONG

well and truly (well kind of well and truly) recovered from depresso enough to tutor my kid and video call Niina. Her concentration legit never ever ever lapses its so scary. Did a tiny bit of project work but I was pretty unproductive. Worked on table names for State Ball then went to sleep early. 

Today

Holy fuck the free coffee they were giving out at Central this morning made my stomach SO UNHAPPY. I was holding in farts all day.

I wore my Kehlani hoodie for the first time and I was fiddling with the hoodie strings then I realised they were the same rounded shape + detachable cap ones on my BESS hoodie and like my mind just had a moment where the dots connected and I remembered that I bought a BESS hoodie in size small but it was so oversized and same with the Kehlani one so THEY MUST BE THE SAME BRAND and guess what? they are

Today was super productive but in a non-productive way. I went to my ANAT lecture, zoned out, went to Matsci to study until my ANAT lab and it was so weird because I'm never at lower campus so I bumped into a lot of VSA people who I normally don't see? Notably Andy lol who talked about how cooked he got at CYN...what new though. Amy Lim helped me choose a colour for the star border for the table names because my brain was so cooked from looking at it for so long. Saw Amy and Stephen who I hadn't really been spending any time with recently and yeah it was just chill BUT I got through ONE 50 minute lecture in 3 hours >:( 

Went to my ANAT lab where I learnt absolutely nothing because the brain is so confusingGG. Then went to library to finish off my table number constellation things in a loner booth. I miss studying in loner booths...that used to be my life in HSC just going library by myself. Saw Lianus for a bit and she looked through my depression memes. 

Life things: I am seriously like 99% going to go for WIESoc Vice-President of Public Relations. First of all, I have the experience and I feel like I know a lot of the team and I'm lowkey hoping they don't YET realise that I'm actually so socially inept... so hopefully they will still vote for me. Anyway had the best time with Vivian today after our meeting and we were just watching The Bachelor Finale (TARA IS SO PRETTY W TH H HH) and talking about people. Like future execs... future b i r t h d a y p r e s e n t s.

EVents team have these competition things where their VP Vivian will post a photo of someone random from our team and like you have to guess who it is (full name + position) and if you get it first you'll get points AND OMG I LAUGHED SO HARD WHEN NIINA SENT ME THEIR CONVO FK i love events 
things I made for State Ball
                                        

Feels bad when you sense they don't want to be around you.

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Sunday 29 April 2018

triggered

fletcher!!! is so good!!! wasted youth!!!

so much character development - slept at 3 am and my body woke me up at 9:30 am. Ok maybe I got woken up by my boss texting me BUT I didn't go back to sleep. Also I was so happy because I thought the person I wanted to text me actually texted me EXACT WORDS being like "I was worried about you" but like it was just a dream so I woke up and checked my phone and yeah
Tell me where your love lies

am I going to be a weak bitch and text first? I feel like Joanne
ugh fuck me dead lo o o o ll ll ll oololllololllllll ok nah gonna wait 20 minutes so I don't seem clingy 
ok I think 20 minutes is up holy shiz my niz i am the weakest weakest bitch I'm legit laughing at myself

now i sit here for another hour or two waiting for a reply y t b

I AM BEING SO UNPRODUCTIVE BECAUSE OF THIS

coming from the weak bitch herself
just say the word, we'll take on the world

thanks lizzie for letting me into her house night when I was depresso. ummmm we fried dumplings and defrosted some leek pancake thing that was the bombdotcom with her dad's dumpling sauce as well o m g. Lizzie is like a constant ray of sunshine even when she's not happy she will still make other people happy. number one brown bae xD 
We just lay in bed watching trailers for the longest time before we settled on "The Boy With the Striped Pyjamas" laterzzzzz I hate that movie but she hadn't seen it and like its just a rite of passage everyone has to go through. we agreed that if we were in world war II era Germany we'd be the first to get killed off.

Oreo was being such a fucking retard yesterday and I was just ready for it with my phone camera


hahahah i feel so fine now YIPPEEEEEEEEEEE