Anyway, just constantly up and down up and down there is no contentedness. y'alls probably tired of me saying this every. single. fucking. day.
So bloody tired, have so much work to do, I want to cry.
Also lowkey was recently reminded of the fact that only people who are nice to everyone are friends with me but can't really think of exceptions to that rule so
but also in a mood because I did so terribly for ELEC lab exam and it doesn't help that I always study with Stephen who literally last minutes everything and manages to do amazing so
I am listening to that suicide song by Logic and it just got to the "I don't wanna die" part.
PHSL lab was the dumbest thing today. We tested different senses for 2 hours and everyone in my group ended up on their phones for the last 45 minutes. Then went to tutor my kid in Cabra and I felt like he ended off slightly better at maths than he started so SUCCESS!!!!
Had a belated birthday celebration for my Mum at District 8 in Cabravale Diggers Club. Lychee, watermelon and strawberry was so good. Xiao long bao was yumm0 as well. EVERYTHING WAS JUST GOOD. Anyway, doing that angsty shit where I aint gonna check fb or texts just so I can feel smug about ignoring peoples messages but then inevitably when I do check my messages there will be none so
ok bye gotta do my mman now. but also I just saw this meme and why is this me
Saw Fip and Lulu the other day and was so shooketh and confused but they both haven't changed HAHAHAHAHAHA. They know more about whats going on in my life than some people I see everyday.
Sunday
Woke up super late, went to Yum Cha with the rents. This prawn shit is the only prawn shit I will eat ITS SO GOOOOOOOD
my dad legit took like soooo long to get to the restaurant because he drove all the way back home to get his fake tooth smh. When I called him he was like "YEAH IM FINDING PARKING" what a liar smh.
saw FIP and lulu in their matching
activewear, activewear, going to Cabra station in their activewear.
Went home, drove to Niina's house and chilled for a bit before heading to library. She wore the vans that we got her!!
We studied for so long and so hard (jks I did some marketing stuffs). We were considering getting UberEats but then we remembered that I parked inside the uni so we just drove to Maccas. Skinny Ninny just got a coffee but I got 24 nuggets for myself because I was hungry a f. She ate the skin because she was hungry but not hungry enough to compromise her morals.
Did two cover photos (both kinda shit) and a Project workbook. Then uber drove her home and went home. Played with cat and let her sleep wit me again.
Do you guys ever wonder
All the street lights, glowing, happen to be
Just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare
See I know my destination, I'm just not there
Literally... I should just go work for Channel 10 at this point (BUT ALSO HOW PRETTY IS THIS FKN ROSE OMG)
and then there's this ugly shit lol I can't be bothered to make it nice
Monday
Holy shiz niz left my house at 7:10, picked up Yiyi, Phuc and Niina and got to uni at .... 9 AM. MY ankle was about to break from continuously braking and accelerating fml.
Didn't study for agesssss and Phuc told me to wake him up if he snored but ceebs snapchatted it instead and he got angery at me. Not as ANGERY as he got at Lini at Niina's party though AHHAHHAHA this was legit one of the funniest snapchats I had ever seen
Yiyi and I went to get coffee and naan then started doing some work. Needed help with my MMAN assignment so Riya came up to lib yay and then all these WIESoc/VSA started coming in and it was a chill time. It was a WIESoc/VSA bonding.
Went with Yiyi to buy some lunch but I wasn't hungry and when I asked Dani if she wanted anything she was like give me Laksa soup and I'm lowkey scared of her so after I finished ordering I was contemplating which utensils I should get incase she would whoop me for getting the wrong spoon or whatever. I settled on the stockmarket spoon and then when I gave it to her she was like... you didn't get chopsticks? Theres noodles in this. and I was like
today is the day i die
Worked on MMAN, then went to ELEC labs to practice for my lab exam today.
Went to WIESoc meeting, then back up to lib. It was nice studying with WIE for once because... we never do that. Left uni at 10:30 and drove Phuc and Yiyi home. SAW DIDI AGAIN HAHAHAH such a friendly loving doggo. We listened to Phuc's chinese music on the way back kms. He's so good at singing it even though he doesn't speak Chinese.
Got home, Selz came over to make a thank you present for her yellow shirts squad leader. I continued to do my mman assignment n then conked out at 3 am. I woke up at 5 am and she was still fkn there cutting and sticking on photos omg. She left a bit after 5 and then I went back to sleep.
It is now Tuesday and I'd like to let you all know that I got fucking woken up by my leg cramp last night F M D it lasted for so long and hurt like a motherfucker. this is what happens when my entire diet consists of cheese naan, subway cheese toasties, maccas and coffee.
WAS AT UNI FROM 9 AM - 1 AM IN THE SAME FUCKING ROOM FOR THE WHOLE TIME (EXCEPT MAYBE 2 OF THSOE HOURS) but lemme just start from the beginning.
Yeet yeet and phuc picked me up at 7:15 in the morning (on 3 hours of sleep). Got to uni at 9 am to hopefully spend the entire day doing my ELEC assignment which was due the next day but when I got to the computer lab I read my assignment and had no idea how to start. Also I was legit in the pissiest mood after spending all day Wednesday punishing my friends and myself after Deadpool so I didn't ask anyone to come study with me in ELEC (except for Stephen cus we were both dying doing the same assignment l m a o). But yeah until noon I was finishing Niina's birthday card cutting out pictures n shit. It was quite therapeutic.
Went down to Red Centre to get Brenda and Chris to sign the card but it was just Brenda cus Chris didn't wake up in time HAHAHA. Then went up to lib to get Andy, Phuc and Yiyi to sign but we had to pull some sneakies since they were studying with Niina. I asked Niina to get coffee with me and I thought she would take ages to come out but nah she came out almost immediately so Phuc had to run and hide the card. Then Andy came and Niina was so sus cus I don't usually hang out with Andy. YEAH IT WAS JUST WEIRD HAHAHAHA.
But bought some naan and went back to ELEC building to see that Stephen had arrived and we were both fkn hopeless but at least we were hopeless together. Legit sat there for long because we were both messaging people to help us but no one was replying. ANYWAY, Shinami eventually saved our lives HAHAHA. He send us the google sheets he had been working on with his friends so we could start. just to give u an idea of the fucking truth table we had to come up with... literally later0.
I went to my last ANAT tute ever!! Got 4/6 for my quiz despite not studying lol. Muscles are hard af >:(
Then went back to ELEC building to continue suffering. Worked on the simulation part for so long because I couldn't get all the state changes to show. I rage quitted and went to get subway for dinner and when I came back Rachel Feng helped me get it to work. She's legit so nice. Then Shinami sent me his entire assignment which was 22 pages long. at this stage my assignment was 0 pages long.
Yiyi and Phuc were waiting for me to finish the computing part of my assignment so they could drive me home and omg I felt so bad for making them wait. Just before 12 I went up to lib to say happy birthday to Niina and lololol all of squad were together doing their stats quiz. Chilled for a little bit, then Yiyi and Niina came back to ELEC building with me to watch me finish coding. I basically copied Shinami's code but changed variable names and cases to if statements fmd. SO BAD.
Then we left Stephen to continue suffering and Phuc drove us home. He was driving Yiyi's car which didn't have green P plates so he stole them but he was like "i just took one from two different cars so its not as bad". In the car home, I started actually typing up my assignment. Got home, showered, wrapped Niina's present, did more of my assignment then went to sleep at 4.
Friday (Niina's Birth)
Got to uni at 9:30 am and had 2.5 hrs to finish and print my assignment. Lowkey was freaking out because I forgot that I needed to draw some circuits that Shinami hadn't sent me and it was taking forever.
At 11:15 am I printed it but didn't print the cover sheet. Then the printer decided to stop working and at around 11:40 I had to power walk to lib to print it, then walk-run all the way down to Matsci to hand it in. Also I stapled it upside down. LEL. Anyway, handed it in with a couple of minutes to spare but fk was rly stressed for a sec there.
Grabbed a free V on the way to my histology lab with Jason Phu and it was chill. He gave me some almonds for nourishment for my dying body. Legit was so sleep deprived and hadn't eaten. Last histo lab and it was quite boring we were just doing skin.
Went to Mathews 301 which was booked out for WIESoc. Brenda and Lizzie were just studying so I took a fat nap but I kept fading in and out of consciousness cus I could hear Clara talking to Lizzie and Brenda talking to her sister.
Then Niina called me out of the blue and asked if I wanted to go alcohol shopping with her and Miriam. She was flaking her math tute so we couldn't surprise her at Penny Lane like we wanted to so we just gave her her presents when she came upstairs with Miriam!! We got her the most basic bitch things HAHAHHA. The vans that everyone has and a mon purse card holder.
Miriam drove us to Maroubra where we bought seaweed and I got a cheese and bacon roll because I was starving. Then to Dan Murphys to buy more alcohol. Got back to Niinas where we set up a few more things and Niina got ready.
Teebana arrived (Niina's hs friend) so I went into her room and took a nap HAHAHA. They woke me up cus they needed to try on their outfits lmao.
THEN THE PARTY STARTEDDDDD. Woopee. I legit conked out so early though. I remember everything up to a point where I was just chilling on Niina's bed talking to her friend Sarah who was quite tipsy and told me she was too socially awkward to be a doctor HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA and then I think I just fell asleep or smth. IDK.
but yeah before that we played the multiplication game and drank way too much soju. I lost twice. Once to Niina and once to Lizzie HOW SHAMEFUL omg. but yeah it was really fun!! Like its so weird because I feel like everyone that came was so friendly and even though everyone was from different groups, they were all the kind of people that are so up for meeting people so everyone was mingling and hanging out.
Lizzie said she wouldn't drink but yeah she got baited so hard. We were running out of soju so we told Phuc to go buy more!! THE NIGHT GOT SO ROWDY THO HAHAHAH someone broke a window and someone broke/fractured their foot.
Niina and I had the longest bathroom dnm like I was crying and shit and people thought that Niina was chundering cus we were in there for so long. People kept knocking on the door wanting to pee but we kept yelling at them to go away. So they had nowhere to pee. One guy went outside to pee and when he walked back inside he thought the window was a door and he banged into it and broke it hahahahhahaha.
Yeet yeet died so early so I gave her a blanket and she just slept on the couch whilst everyone was still kicking on.
I am not longer a weak bitch (hopefully).
Saturday
In the morning, I woke up in Niina's bed feeling so fucking drunk and she was next to me on the second mattress on the floor BAHAHAHHAA. I felt so bad so when she got up I rolled onto the floor so she could have the bed but she didn't even end up going back to sleep. Apparently her mum was super mad at her but yeah it was such a funny situation. Her mum was silently vacuuming in the morning and every time someone greeted her she wouldn't say anything. but you hear about how house parties are just a no no and idk i just found it so funny that her house actually got trashed.
Niina's mum painting over some red marks that wouldn't wash off lmao
Spent the morning talking to Harry Zhanga and Ben Cai?? It was pretty random but they are both so nice. and Harry is the most interesting person on this planet. He emailed NASA being like I have these ideas about farming in space and then they emailed back being like ok you should do it then because no one at NASA is doing it rn. So he basically got NASA's approval and started a new SLP about space farming.
Yiyi dropped me off at Central and I came home to the best surprise every. My dad bought LACTOSE FREE MILK!!! WTH!!! i didn't even know that was a thing. It tastes sweeter than normal milk because they add the enzyme lactase into the milk (which is what lactose intolerant people are deficient in) and it breaks down the lactose into glucose and galactose. Both of those things are sweeter than lactose so the milk tastes a lot sweeter. WHICH IS GOOD because I won't have to add as much sugar when I make milk tea and it'll still be sweet. HOW COOL IS THAT.
Far out I spent so long watch youtube videos about lactose intolerance and it is so interesting.
i just want to study for finals is that too much to ask. this is mess of a post I'm sorry
You got me shot down, by " "
I was the most angsty piece of shit yesterday but lol it felt good to just walk around aimlessly for a bit with my phone on airplane mode. Basically on Tuesday I got repeatedly triggered first by some interactions with people in VSA that put me in a bad mood and then afterwards the thing that happened happened again but by that time I already agreed to go watch Deadpool and I fucking knew I would regret it and guess what my pissed off levels just followed that y = ex curve. Everytime I thought I was over it and recovered ... nope just triggered again.
So yeah when we returned from Deadpool I legit just couldn't be in the same room as them so I grabbed my phone and just walked out of the library. Didn't know where I was going but ended up on top of Scientia listening to Khalid cus it had the maddest view of the main walkway. Was lowkey worried that seccys would see me and be like wtf u doing so I walked down to chem sci and just sat on the main walkway for so long i don't even know how long.
should've just stayed outside because when I returned to the library lmao triggered→infinity. tried to hide my fucking anger/sadness but obviously was not working so I tried to do a bit of work and then was like nope and went out again. This time I just sat like on one of the benches in commerce courtyard and tried to chill out.
improve my mental state by doing the right thing? not today satan.
will just patiently wait for Friday night when I know i will be triggered again
Figure 1
Some positives from the last three days:
Saw Feng at UNSW and it was so strange seeing her long-ass body in matsci but nice. Miss being public nuisances with her. Bitched about high school people with Lianne lmao our favourite past-time.
Stephen and I got 5 for our last ELEC lab meaning I got 100% for all of them this sem!!!
Second half of Monday was so fun!!!! BESS networking night was the best thing ever lmao I got semi lit because I was serving the drinks and was bored so just started drinking it myself. But then depresso on the train trip home because I was alone. Talked to justin who is just one of those people that are too nice for this world.
the first half of Tuesday - was cute, was chill, was fun, literally was so happy (AND THEN EVERYTHING CHANGED dun dun dunnn!!!!)
Got driven to uni by Dalz and we got there in like 40 minutes?!?! wth?!?
Some negatives:
Wasting time doing things that I shouldn't be doing uh (refer to Figure 1) instead of doing my ELEC assignment which I'm literally leaving till the last day. There's no character development here. At all.
Legit had 4 things on my to do list... and I didn't even finish ONE of them. Tbh it wasn't supposed to take me this long.
Utterly ignoring my VSA and Project responsibilities atm like literally rip me
fucking state vsa has so many fucking group chats its killing my messenger and snapchat I want to just hit that delet but I'm too passive to actually quit so lol. In the organisation chats for charity dinner and camp despite me doing NOTHING to help organise. WHO'S GOT TIME FOR THIS HONESTLY. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING STUDY.
Lizzie used to say she was like as sinuisoidal wave with her highs and lows and I was just a in a constant pit of doom but nah I think I'm sinuisoidal now. I get periods of time where I'm literally elated with life and then it can suddenly 180. l o l I wonder what it's dependent upon hmmmm.
What else do I have to say? oh yeah would highly recommend going up to the balcony of scientia building its actually so calming at night. Fk typing about this has made me remember that feeling again... I don't even want to wake up tomorrow because have to magic up an entire assignment in a day. I may flake on q&a night?
oh lol didn't consider the fact that I'm going to definitely get triggered if I go so GOODBYE world I'm not going.
wait khalid could you please repeat that? I don't quite get it.
Coaster
sometimes it's funny how pathetic i am
the one thing I will never understand about people is why they would want to spend time with people they don't know over people that they do know. like I know that's so hypocritical of me because I used to do that all the time with VSA and strangers that I now call my friends and I wouldn't have gotten close to them IF there wasn't someone enabling us to hang out. e.g. Phuc inviting me to his squad pre's in first year even though they all knew each other and phuc was the ONLY ONE who knew me. He still fkn invites me though and I felt awkward as shit BUT I met some new people. I'm 100% sure that others in his group were feeling what I'm feeling right now which is BITTERNESS that he would invite an outsider to their pre's.
LIKE I KNOW WHAT THAT FUCKING FEELS LIKE. its the best when someone knows you're feeling left out and want to include you BUT fmd I get so angery when its like you're about to go somewhere with people you really really know and then someone goes oh do you wanna come too LIKE FKN WHY WHY BISH WHY NOW WE GNA HAVE TO SMALL TALK AND INCLUDE THEM TOO I FUCKING CAN'T
i guess some people are just like that tho (even though they said they werent)
Lately you don't seem so genuine.
cold blooded
I'm also aware that I'm being a bitch because this is how you're supposed to meet new people n grow n shit but FUCK WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE
lol I'm just in the mood to rip into people atm. Its 2 am and I have to get up in 4.5 hours and have to be conscious to do my assignment tmr what is happening. i'm like subtweeting but on blogger so i guess its sublogging.
I CAN'T SLEEP im in the mood to keep ranting booOoOoOoO.
Finished my MMAN assignment. It took so long and was so aids that I didn't go back to edit my working out and shit so I may lose marks for skipping steps but I was way too ceebs. Handed it in at around 7 pm when it was due at 12. Record?
Then I caught up on ANAT, and watched 1.5 PHSL lectures. BUT i kept taking breaks to look at the photos from Jo's party. I legit don't remember taking over 90% of them. In my snapstory, you can hear Selz in the background going "can you wipe the cake off her eyebrow" and Stephen took a photo of this exact moment HAHAHA
Called it a night.
Monday
Woke up late today to Dalz message being like who needs a ride to uni and I thought she left already but she didn't so I GOT A RIDE!! We got to uni in legit 40 minutes it was so quick.
Went to matsci for 5 mins to say hi to VSA people, then Penny Lane to chill with Anthony and Niina for a bit. Then ELEC computer labs with Amy and Stephen to finish our lab from last week. Then ANAT lab where we did muscles but I literally had no idea what was going on so tbh it was kind of a waste.
Then back to lib. Niina and I went to buy naan and it was legit the fluffiest cheese naan we've ever had z o m g SO GOOOOOOD.
BESS Industry Night
Headed to BESS industry night at Cicada Innovations and just listened to music on the bus and in the freezing cold when we were waiting for our bus transfer. Reminisced about Don't Forget by Demi Lovato what a banger.
Lol I already knew I was too chicken shit to actually network before I arrived and so was Niina but she really wanted to talk to "Nigel" so when Akshin asked her to serve alcohol I just took her spot so she could go do a round. It was really chill though I met the 4th year rep and got to talk to Justin a bit more who is super friendly. He was like .... "so what exactly did you see at BESS Camp" and I was like, "too much". Feels bad for him because all his friends keep giving him shit for it.
Jason and Jasmine were also just walking around aimlessly. I SAW SO MANY PEOPLE FROM MY ANAT LAB THERE OMG it was weird. BUT KINDA NICE!! All the BIOM kids this sem are doing the same subjects so I can actually identify people doing my degree now.
Didn't expect to get lit but I kept drinking champagne and it got me a bit buzzed. By the end of the night, Niina and I ended up playing drunk ping pong and litly washing the dishes in the girl's bathroom.
sighs
SIGHS
my brain motherfucking knows that I have fucked the fuck up
now I am back to being quite sober again but being the weak bitch I was when I was lit, I really wanted to kick-on
Me using alcohol as a way to escape from my constant state of suffering and self-loathing?
issa banger
most unrelatable lyrics in this song is "but four drinks I'm wasted"
but twelve drinks I'm wasted
Thursday
fucked up and woke up super late, missed my OWN WORKSHOP that I was supposed to be running fml. Made 4 people come to uni at 9 am for no reason... lol woke up at 10:30 to a couple of messages being like "Hi Serena! We're here! Where abouts are you?". FUCKED THE FUCK UP.
Drove to uni because my mum was sick at home then met up with Riya to do MMAN assignment. IT WAS SUPER FKED THO because there's legit so much matlab coding to do for it. Due Sunday so I'm not that worried atm. Niina delivered me ice coffee and fml shouldn't have drank it on an empty stomach because for the next 3 hours I was so jittery and couldn't focus. Stephen came and we were both kinda ceeb studying so we went on a snacc run to Subway, Southern Wok and Penny Lane (all the best spots for food mhmmmmm). I should do a blog post purely about uni food but jokes only know upper campus.
Went to ANAT tute then back to library to study but was really unproductive for 2 hours. Then worked hard until 11. Drove Niina and Selina home then went home to cat.
Friday
sad because I didn't bring a single pair of earphones and I couldn't listen to music.
Slept in, went to histology lab, learnt some things!! hung out with Jason for a bit before he had to go to his anat tute. went to lib to start working on the cover photo for camp sighs. Met up with Lianne and Andy and we went down to quad to get Assam milk tea and this green tea ice cream thing that was so fkn good.
Jo's Birthday!!
Then bussed to Town Hall with Andy to buy Jo's present. We went to Mecca and Sephora with Selz and like us two being the two in VSA who know the least about makeup... um .... let's just say it was interesting. We got her an Anastasia palette, some Fenty dual highlighter shit and some Stila eyeshadow shit.
Had a nice time at Chicken-V with Alan, Andy, Phuc, Amy, Jo, Khang and Selz. Their cream cheese chicken is legit to die for omG. Jo got a birthday surprise from the restaurant which was this huge plate of fries, a choco-pie and a bottle??? so random and it was free too. Service at Chicken-V is next level. HIGHLY RECOMMENDDDD
khalid masters!!!
oh also this got released whilst I was tipsy at Chicken V and now I feel famous
my primary school teachers + my mum commenting lmao those are the only fans I need
Headed to Sanct, got a few long islands in my system, I SAW ISABELLA FROM WIESOC LMAO, then headed to Albions. Memory fades at this point. I was watching my snapstory this morning and legit remembered nothing that I recorded. Had absinthe and tequila shots?? Idk but absinthe was fucking ratchet. funny cus the last time I had absinthe was Jo's birthday last year and it almost killed me. guess this is a birthday tradition now?
Bonnie still hasn't added me on facebook fml
Somehow ended up at maccas, then trained home with new/old UNSW committee. Ubered it home from Canley Vale station and thank fk Harry was there to help me get my uber otherwise I may have been kidnapped. He's actually so nice omggggg.
CAME HOME AND CAT SNUGGLED UP WITH ME TO SLEEP. So so cute she was like sleeping at the foot of my bed for a few hours then suddenly I got woken up because she was moving towards my head and then she just plonked herself down on top of my non-existent boobs and started snoring. so fucking cute.
Was a fun night but yeah lol managed not to chunder but was still pretty tragic. sigh.
Today
Woke up so late and I feel a bit deaf in one ear. Need to do mman assignment now woohoo.
If you give me just one night, you're gonna see me in a new light!!!!!!!!
Dear diary, i looked at a lot of depresso memes today to make myself giggle. I felt better. Bye for now, Serena.
my Billie Eilish song of the day
there are no lips meeting here except for my upper and lower so uhhhh guess I'll just eat my chicken and call it a day
Tuesday
Got to uni at 10, studied for my PHSL lab and tried to read my ELEC lab but couldn't make sense of it. Went to ELEC lab with Stephen where we struggled so so so hard. We kind of learnt something I guess?? We didn't finish but we have next week's lab to finish as well so it should be ok :) plus we have someone else's complete lab to copy
Then went down to VSA food event with Niina and Sarah and idk it was just kinda weird vibes like all the PRs were all working really hard and no one seemed like they wanted to chat so I felt low key cut but then found out later that night that it was a really badly organised event and like so much stuff went wrong and people were crying and shit SO YEAH. Their milk tea was good tho
Saw Lizzie and Lianne for a bit, went back to lib before we had to leave for our PHSL lab. Niina was doing her comp lab at the same time as I was doing my real lab so we could walk up to Wallace Wurth together for once
OMG PHSL LAB WAS SO SOSOSOSOSOSOOOOO FUN. It sounds super fucked but we had to dissect an alive frog!!! Like it was under so much anaesthesia that it couldn't feel a thing though. I was doing the dissecting and I was so squeamish at the beginning but after I made the first cut...
Had to snip snip the skin, then the muscle, then scrounge around in its insides to find the lung, bladder and mesentery to examine under the microscope. Since the frog was still alive, you could literally see the blood flowing in the arteries/veins. OMG and we went up to 40 x and you could see the individual red blood cells flowing in the capillaries. I was so shooketh. We popped the bladder to try and see the spiral vessels (we could not), then the demonstrator dropped some adrenaline on the frog and the walls of the vessels in the mesentery full constricted so the blood would flow slower. IT WAS SO FUCKING COOL. We also had to cut the femoral artery in the frog's leg to make it bleed out and examine what effect that had on the blood flow.
BUT NAH THE COOLEST PART WAS WHEN WE SAW THE HEART OH MY. Everytime it beat it would fill up with blood and the colour would completely change. I WAS SO SHOOKETH. I saw an artery on the side of the frog's chest cavity so I was like hmmm its already dead let me just nick it real quick and fk THE WHOLE FROG FILLED UP WITH BLOOD it was whack. I also had to cut the heart out of the frog and it was so creepy it just kept beating for the longest time. You could also feel how hard it was constricting everytime cus it would legit pinch the glove.
ANYWAY, I'm loving phsl XD.
Went back to the lib where I finally finished my group assignment. (WELL ALMOST LOL I STILL NEED TO ADD REFERENCES but holy fk so happy with it). Will add shadows n shit as it gets closer to the date.
Bought shit strawberry milk tea from chemist, a cheese toastie from subway (most worth thing ever can I just say) and then stayed in the library until 2 am but didn't do any work because so much drama happening in VSA atm HAHAHA and I was living for it.
oh my god when we ubered back to Niina's house our leb uber driver was listening to "Trance Radio" so I remembered at VSA State Ball, everyone was muzzing in the high tea room and like I told Niina and then the driver turns around and starts talking to us about raves n shit. Then just as we're about to get out of the car, he goes, "do you guys take any pills? Or M?" AND WE'RE TRYING SO HARD NOT TO LAUGH we just say "nope haha we just stick to alcohol xD"
Wednesday
GOT TO UNI SUPER DUPER LATE TODAY AT A WHOPPING 12PM!!! Studied with Jo (who I lowkey miss just hanging out with) in matsci for a solid 6 hours today but I really did about 1 hour of work in total because Yiyi came and she was in the yapping mood then Niina returned from her marathon of meetings and she was also in a very ceebs mood. Took multiple breaks to go GYG and IGA. Tried burrito bowl which was b a n g i n g, and nachos which were... not great.
OMG ALSO MY PHSL MARKS CAME OUT FOR MY MIDSEM FUCKING FINALLY AND I GOT 100% Y T BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB
Then went boxing which was super fun today. We did so many drills n shit and we met these two girls who are equally as shit as us so we didn't have to spar with as many of the Big Boys™
ACTUALLY REALLY LIKE BOXING SOMETIMES HAHAHA. Now on the way home :) IM SO HAPPY TODAY IDK my fkn moods are like alternating all the time idk ONE DAY HAPPY ONE DAY SAD YAY!
also niina and I were legit matching on the way to boxing cus I had to borrow her leggings and she was wearing similar shoes hahah
(or i could become vego but ceebs?? guess my heart will have to just skip eight beats at once hmm)
Why? because I learnt to play it on guitar and it also makes no sense at all but its a banger and fits my mood atm. It's about her psychopathic alter ego that kills her lover/all her friends (I'm not entirely sure) and now she feels guilty about it because "now I got a bellyache".
Sunday
Mother's day at Hotpot City in Bankstown. Would recommend / 10 it was so yummy. I got the tom yum soup and it was like perfect level of spice. I gave my mum the mac lipsticks that I bought for her and she wore one of them to dancing that night XD. She was upset after lunch though because my sister had to leave to see her boyfriend.
Tutored Lily and was just a bit tired.
Then went home and did.... nothing ? Cleaned my room, ate like three different snacks, fed the cat a couple of times just out of boredom, played with the cat and suddenly it was 10. Didn't start doing any work until 11:30 and even then it wasn't really working. Idk just always so unproductive >:(
go ahead and watch my heart burn
Monday
got to uni at 9, learnt something from my anat seminar, went to lib to study but it was mostly Khalid Masters just yapping, went to ANAT lab, went back to lib to do assignment, got some food and then had dinner with WIESoc execs, was a bit ceeBs and tired, still tired.
my work in progress but legit dying because idk what to do with the rest of it... the bottom just looks so nice i don't wanna ruin it. hopefully I will make it nice and the markers will just be like.. looks legit.
just kind of in a depresso mood atm. I was so sad last night at around 2 am because I was watching Youtube videos and reading the comments just made me realise how universal my problem is and how I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. there's literally no solution that ends with me being happy.
