uni boxing & shooting for the stars

why is physiology so hard

OK LEMME JUST BLOG REAL QUICK CUS IM SO FUCKING TIRED AND HAVE SO MUCH TO DO BEFORE I SLEEpppp whyYYYYY

uni at 8am today! got a soy cap from penny lane and chai latte for amy whilst waiting for niina. I'm making full use of the $1 coffee special on the tayble app i love it. We went to studIE but I ended up doing project resourcing for most of the day. I gave up at around 3 pm because N O and then I helped Niina with her board games night tmr. We went down to check storeroom and Ainsworth to see how big the space was. 

uni boxing!!  ($10 trial weow)

today was so fun cus Niina, Anthony and I tried out boxing for the first time. We walked into Sam Cracknell and were so awkward cus we didn't know anyone else and the people in the session before us were full sweating, panting and sparring with each other 

Saw Caitlin O'Brien and her face so was red and she looked ready to kill her opponent it was scary. I said hi and she was like "you joined on a really bad week". Anyway, the first thing they made us do was run a lap around the Village Green and after that I was already D Y I N G.

Then we had to skip rope for a solid 3-4 minutes, do an obstacle course + two laps around Sam Cracknell then spin cycle for another 3-4 minutes. I was ready to pass out then the instructor goes "NOW WE'LL DO THAT AGAIN!"

Then we got into pairs and did shoulder/leg taps. IT WAS REALLY WEIRD AND TIRING BUT I COULDN'T STOP SMILING CUS NIINA AND I WERE JUST FUCKING AROUND and i kept dabbing and whipping and then we had to change partners and like the guys we went with were either super serious and aggressive or going easy on us. 

Then we put the boxing gloves on and starting doing punching/jabbing drills. It was so so stupid and fun and we did so many dumb things that we didn't realise were wrong until afterwards like we had to do some kind of body block and you're supposed to lean your shoulder in across your body to shield your frontal area but we were doing like matrix style back bends instead IT WAS SO STUPID. 

The boxing gloves smelt so so so bad though. Ended the lesson by sparring/shoulder tapping again and yeah it was just super fun and didn't stop laughing the entire time. my neck, my back fucking hurts already and its been 3 HOURS. 

GOT A LIFT FROM DALENA WHO FINISHED HER IMP WORKSHOP AT THE SAME TIME YAYYYYYYY i love getting driven home ITS SO NICEEEE

ok I just heard a massive guttural yell outside in my townhouse and stomping footsteps all the way up the townhouse. My dad must be scaring away the rapey orange cat again omG.

i almost died making this i hope you guys appreciate because im sure when it goes up on the page people wont even click on it

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falling behind

Parents have recently let Skwizgaar come into the house but only when one of these two things are happening:

1. the rapey orange cat is outside waiting to rape Skwizgaar
2. it is raining

Sis is considering getting her spayed so that she won't have babies and the rapey orange cat will fuck off. 

Sunday

Did nothing and I loved it. I didn't even watch a movie....

under WIESoc Games Night promo k k k kkekekekkeeeeee

Made a coupla quick marketing posts for VSA NSW then uh.... did literally nothing wtf. What an interesting day. Kinda ugly tbh idk didn't really like it.

meanwhile at Macquarie VSA:

Watched Bachelor in Paradise and it was kinda boring t b h. I'm waiting for Megan to come spice some shit up because the drama is so boring.

Monday

Hi hi from Central Station on top of the Hurstville platform. I don't want to go to my platform because its cold and I didn't bring a jacket. My events VP Vivian Bakiris just asked me what an LG was HAHAH.

I accidentally slept in today and ended up getting to uni at 11:30 instead of 9. Did nothing, then went to watch Anthony's first string quartet performance + some random beat boxers, went back to library and told Niina on the way there that I used to do Physie in primary school and we died cus its such a stupid stupid dance style. Here are some of my physie photos woohoo I actually won awards for this stuff would you believe it

Went to my anatomy lab and we were doing kidneys + reproductive system today lol. Got information overload and brain legit was so fried towards the end. The bladder is a tiny bag for your pee to drain into idk why I was so shook when I saw it. There was nothing mindblowing I learnt about the reproductive organs though. OOOh maybe that the egg from the ovary gets released into the abdominal cavity and kinda just floats around until it gets caught by the fimbriae of the uterine tubes. I always thought they were directly connected?! My demonstrator Mathew picked up like this sack in a specimen and was like "this is the uterus" but then someone was like uh... that is a guy cus it has a PENIS!

Then went back to library, got some banana bread and did some ELEC stuff. Had a meeting with Riya but it was mostly her telling me about how mech camp was and how her and her boyfriend met L M A O so random she clearly was not in the mood to do work. We gossiped a bit idk she's just super nice. When she asked me how I was though I feel so bad being like "oh I'm perfectly fine" but that's what I said because that's what I am?! I feel bad when other people are going through so much shit but I'm like ... well I'm okay I guess. Reminds me of that meme where the chick talks about herself forever but then goes "WELL HOW ARE YOU?" but I'm really really fine with the other person talking about themselves forever.

At WIESoc meeting, Naomi brought up starting a WIESoc blog and LIZZIE GOT SOOOOO EXCITED AND I WAS LIKE IT COULD BE FUN?!?! so keen keen keen. I was about to tell them about my blog but then I realised I may have bitched about some people before and nty don't wanna start shit. We sorted out our ball tables and woohoo Miriam and Phuc are coming now yeeeet

Yeah afterwards stayed back with Viv to finish my ELEC tute and watch Bachelor in Paradise with her. She told me about how she was dropping yet another subject to focus on WIESoc and her health and I was like FMD?!?!?!?!!??!?!! She is so stressed why. then she too asked me how I was and again, I was like hmmm I'm fine XD

Omw home now. Allergic to coming home before 10 pm.

i feel like im just so funny these days

YIYI IS SO FUNNY ON WIESOC SNAP GROUP OMLORD

Tuesday

Got to uni at 8, caught up on some elec lectures, went to elec lab which stephen and I smashed out yet again (wow we're so good at elec)!! went to beef noodle salad event and felt a lil awkward because the new prs didn't know who I was and it was a bit sad but it was nice seeing everyone again. 

VSA seems like such a sad memory now

Went back to lib, bought some cake for charitea with Niina and then died! Its been 4 hours and I have done nothing! woohoo! Going home with Dalena tonight so that will be fun.

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friday nights

When life is good and you're just like well how long is this going to last

Yesterday

Ummmm where to start. Had a pretty fun night last night LOL. I wasn't even supposed to go out but yeah ended up at Sanct as usual (I'm beginning to notice a pattern on Friday nights).

Went to uni super late yesterday for my histology lab. It was standard. Went to "study" at lib and just did one quiz in 3 hours + a nap. At 5 pm, I went down to Hilmer to see Selina and Aanika who btw seems like the most chill person now O_O like she's so so chill WTH I swear she was not this cool in HS. We got kicked out of the open area so we just sat outside the elevators with Andy as well. Yapped about VSA and life so I didn't do anything for like 1.5 hours. Andy asked me the same thing he always asks me and I'm like wtf why would I lie about something like that. HE'S SO COOKED.

Then Niina came back from tutoring and she wanted to have a wholesome night at MATSOC board games but we didn't know anyone there except for Brenda who was busy with her own friends so we hung around for 20 mins, stole pizza, food and drinks then left.

Selina and Andy left to go to their first VSA bonding and Niina promised me she was going to drink with me next Friday but then she realised that next Friday was a holy day so she was like "omg can't drink on Jesus' birthday so ok we go out tonight instead" and I was like HELLS YEEEEEEAHHH. Walked back to her house, dropped our shit off, curled the copious amount of hair I have, drank a bit of Turkish vodka then left to go to the city. My bladder almost burst so we ran into the nearest bar and their toilet was fkn closed and I was like hell nah and luckily there was another toilet upstairs.

We went to Star Bar to meet Niina's HS besties (Miriam, Louisa) and then left them shortly afterwards to go to alley. Shared 2 bottles of soju (strawberry tastes like ass btw) and then saw FD and her boothang + so many VSA people INCLUDING the chick who was in the State Ball promo video and she was like oMG ARE YOU THE SERENA WHO DID THE COVER PHOTO

left right goodnight

Got lit, went to Sanct which was a bit boring tbh.

if you look really closely you can see that we r not ok

Saw Connie Yao ofc, saw some of the new VSA PRs who were like dying. Then went to maccas and baited Selina to come back to see me but she was just so done with life and her tragic PRs because she didn't get lit and had to look after them. I remember messaging Debbie last night as well and fucking Vivien chundered on her. Selina stayed with us a bit then went home but yeah she was so not in the mood :(

172 was our streak.

We ate so many nuggets and chips. Headed back to Niina's house where we both fell asleep on the bus then got off and had to sit outside Soul Burger for 20 minutes because Niina felt too sick to move and I tied her hair up but she started saying how her ears were like monkey ears and then I started playing a self-love playlist on Spotify.

We just lay on the couch and talked for a while idk about what just life things and somehow ended up stroking each others eyebrows? It was a very nice chill night.

nice hoodie

Today

At the library now getting ready to start doing Project work. WOOHOOO!! Also I got a $2 LARGE SOY CAP from Village Cafe because of the app discount code for Tayble that someone posted on UNSW Discussion. SO GOOD.

Fast forward and I just spent fucking 3.5 hours doing ONE project book kms. WHY IS THIS TAKING SO LONG?? I probably not going out tonight or anything so I will end this post here :)

jokes lmao I went to see Amy just then. visited her after work like a real wife XD. We had ippudo yumm0.

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pride

when

in

doubt

dab

it 

out

Yesterday

Dua(denum) Lipa 

I have a quiz tomorrow for anatomy on the digestive system so my title is relevant ok. Anyway, DUA WAS AMAZING AHHHHHH I'm watching her performances on Youtube because I have post concert depression. So much hotter irl as well omfg. She started with Hotter Than Hell and bruhh h h hh hhhhhhhh. We got a really good view because we were one of the first ones in the back section so we were on the railing thing and no one was in front of us for another 3 meters. 

Favourite was definitely Be The One though cus she made the crowd do the shouting bit towards the end where she just repeats "Be The One" a bajillion times but omg I was having the best time. SO UPSET SHE DIDN'T SING HOMESICK THOUGH!!??!!? ughakdhklhjlkh. But yeah it was a massive party and I get really pissed at people who don't dance LOL. I feel like I go harder than most people at concerts cus IDGAF xDDDDDDDDDDD

she's hotter than hell (which is good since I'll be there soon and need to get climatised)

She brought the pride flag out at some point and Selz looked at me was like sarcastically, "are you having a good time?" and I nodded and fucking danced my heart out. I am beyond excited for Halsey!!!

Other Things

Was phoneless for sooooooo bloody long yesterday. I was dying without internet on the train because I couldn't even watch lectures cus I forgot to download them beforehand. I bought a coffee, then studied with Niina before going to do some IMP interviews. The first interview was super good but the second one was not great. I interviewed Shabab, my old PR exec, which was a tad bit weird. He offered Nancy and I a caffeine pill. Then "studied" some more but I really wasn't that productive because people kept coming and going and talking and stuff so idk. Struggled so hard over MMAN because I had no solutions until Jason sent me the course pack. Joanne arrived to yap some more and Amy kept leaving because our table was so noisy OOPS. Went to Central with Jo then collected my phone off FD from UTS.

Today

Cry for you, I'll die for you. Mad regrets not getting the Dua Lipa hoodie cus fml it looks SO NICE. Teresa wore it to our WIESoc bonding today and I just made a passing comment like "I really like your hoodie" cus it was black with a tiny bit of text and nice pink block letters on the sleeves and then she goes "yeah you went Dua Lipa too right?!" and I was so shook when she showed me the sleeves and they said Dua Lipa. I saved $100 though?!? so I'm not that upset.

Today I slept in until 8:30!!! Latest its been in a while lol. I headed to uni, crashed Niina's events subcom meeting and ate some pancakes. Yiyi, Phuc, Mirette and Vivian were there and it basically turned into a bash VSA/gossip session. Then Nancy Dinh came to pick up Phuc and idk why but Phuc made it so awkward. oMG ALSO whoever was playing their music at Whitehouse needs a raise. New Love by Dua Lipa came on then Curious by Hayley Kiyoko omfg I was so shook cus like no one listens to Hayley Kiyoko. 

Went to library to "study" more like wail about how screwed I was. So much complaining because I literally had no idea what was going on in over half the tute questions. I went off to do my ANAT quiz and got 5/6 but idk what I did wrong so eh. I also packed lunch last night because I'm so poor I don't wanna keep spending $20 everyday at uni just to sustain myself. Mirette, one of the new events subcom was just sitting in a booth near us and she snapped me about to feed Niina some potatoes HAHAHHAHA. Also brought chia seeds to put in my lunch because ... uh.. why not?

Death to meeeee I have a PHSL exam next week too grrrrr. PHSL a bit more fun compared to MMAN though. 

Got pretty wrecked by my MMAN exam so walked with Stephen to his Redback meeting then I went to Roundhouse for "chill drinks". It was so chill that I didn't drink AHAHHAHAHA and literally didn't talk to anyone besides Niina and sometimes Abe/Riya but yeah I just not so good at socialising. We got mac n cheese and potato fries. Both were pretty shit ngl fuck roundhouse sides. But music was gucci - mumford and sons and the supporting act from Dua hAHAHA. 

soz I only have photos of myself but I legit don't take photos anymore

stayed back to talk for a bit more (Riya was telling us her life story) and I think I met Riya's boyfriend? I don't even know cus they didn't act like bf/gf. Anyway, Riya's alleged boyfriend dropped me off at Central and now I'm at home. Its 1:23 am, Amy's just bring bringed me, I vowed that I wouldn't stay up this late but alas I still haven't started working on the workbook for Project tmr.

never seen a more accurate review title

panic! and Hayley! why! do! I! live! in! Australia!

no life, without wife XD. 

(SO MANY MORE PHOTOS GOT RELEASED and now you can really see who I didn't hang out with during camp)

I used to be a such a doubtful person in first year?? like wow how sad was I... I don't even remember nor do I want to O_O

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I don't need your love

GUYS PLEASE WATCH THE VID I'M ACTUALLY SO PROUD TO BE IN WIESOC THIS YEAR!!!! ALSO IM IN IT FOR A SOLID 3 SECONDS DOING WEIRD SHIT WITH MY HANDS

Yesterday

I need to blog more about stuff that I find on the internet because I realise I don't do that anymore.

Woke up feeling like a zombie, went to morning anat seminar, boring af mman tute, studied for a bit with Niina outside Ainsworth until my laptop ran outta batts, had a spinach and feta pide, skipped BESS coffee meet n greet because ceebs walking all the way up to AGSM, went to Arc storeroom to help Niina and Viv inventory our WIESoc stuff, went to anatomy lab where I got taught by Mathew Chu from VSA who is actually such a good teacher even though his pace could be faster, got my portable off Niina who stole it and now I'm sitting in an empty lecture room with a random guy who is gaming on his laptop.

I haven't done a dnm blog post in a bajillion years because no. 1 I feel like acknowledging my thoughts isn't good for me sometimes and no. 2 I realise its probably classified as TMI. I miss lazing around at home and watching movies all day which I did first sem last year but I'm way too busy this sem for that anymore :( So much shiet to do I cry everyday. I really don't get mechanics atm as well which makes me feel worse.

Today

Are you ready for a literal essay?

also yeah I wrote this on word because I had no phone and no net on the train

VSA State Meeting/Bonding

First bonding so triggered HAHAHHA jokes it was ok

I had like ptsd flashbacks of when I first started VSA because our first inaugural meeting was exactly ONE year ago and I feel so comfortable with most of them now. It’s also really sad how today was VSA UNSW team’s inaugural meeting as well. Legit this morning woke up to so many 1 year friendversary things on FB because we all added each other after inaugural. Saw on snap that Selina (top UNSW IVP) organised so many lit activities for them like fire noodle challenge and skittle getting to know you stuff. Last year, our inaugural was sooooo awkward. Or at least I felt it was awkward. 

I remember how nervous I was last year when I met all the VSA people for the first time because I was super insecure and hadn’t socialised with new people in ages. I feel like I’ve improved in that aspect SLIGHTLY since then because if I’m ever feeling awkward I don’t beat myself up for it. I just accept that sometimes I don’t click with everyone. But yeah so sad because like that was me last year… beginning my metaphorical “journey” with VSA HAHAHHA but now all these newbies are getting that experience and I’m just jealous I guess. I don’t want Phuc and Selina especially to love their new team more than they loved ours ☹ Just jealous things I guess XD

Also I feel like I’m a super guarded person so its hard to get to know me and idk I just don’t like having to go through this process again with State VSA. 

Sooooo how was State today??? I’ve been getting lowkey pissed at some people because I don’t get enough like direction with State but at the same time when I take initiative to do things, the execs always have to check it before it goes up. I guess that’s just how the VSA hierarchy works but it’s annoying having to double check everything and them taking ages to reply to me. 

Anyway, I had a semi private meeting with the execs about it and I felt like I was about to cry because I was voicing my concerns and they were all looking at me like r u ok. I think they all understand where I’m coming from but at the same time I don’t want to be that person on the team that’s hard to work with because I might be asking for too much? Idk. Also getting triggered because Tommy refused to move onto Slack because he doesn’t see the value in it but at the same time he doesn’t put in the effort to try and won’t listen to anyone else’s opinion on it. After seeing how efficiently WIESoc work as a team… management in VSA is triggering me. I guess it’s supposed to be more fun though so eh. Tommy, Carmen and Amy are a clique, Precious is getting triggered because of that and Christine is just clueless. UGH I don’t like it. 

Smh

I’m so happy that Jo is in state though because I think I would actually die by myself. Met more people today and like idk it was nice and wholesome. Rika is half jap and half Chinese and a super sheltered 2nd year who has tasted alcohol a grand total of 3 times. She’s sooooooooo innocent but could sense like the nervous vibes off her because she was the only complete VSA newbie. She kept trying to fill up our cups. UMMMM sat on a table with Aivi, Carmen, Dani, Veronica, Rika and Joanne and they weren’t rowdy so like there were lots of lapses in conversation. Aivi is cool though she said “I didn’t know you were so savage” and I was thinking I’m only insulting everyone because I’m nervous. Carmen reminds me of Lucy!! She’s a mum and thinks she’s too tired and old for VSA. Veronica is also super chill like shes very talkative and confident. Joanne HATES ME.

Do you ever wish that there was like a file for your personality that anyone could just download and they would KNOW you. Skip that small talk bs it’s so tiring trying to get people to understand you. Fuck sound so fucking angsty “no one understands me”. 

You know you’re a negative Nancy when you get pissed at people giggling on the train. Omfg honestly shut the fuck up.

So yeah, we had our meeting at UTS (where I left my phone behind and Joyce kindly walked all the way from Central to collect it for me), ate at Jumak then went to Maccas for dessert. OMW home now because I’m ceebs for socialisation and have so much work to do. Not particularly happy nor sad atm idk such weird mood.

Other Things

Dalena drove me to school today!!! Feels bad because I can sense her doubting her engineering degree and we talked about it a bit and idk its just such a struggle staying at uni for so long whilst everyone around you is moving on with their lives. We rocked out to old school Taylor though and it was 10/10 bonding. She legit knows all the words to the album Fearless and I was so shooooook cus she didn’t seem like a Swifty. Shared a moment singing Our Song HAHAHHAA

Got to uni after almost 1 hr and 45 mins, walked to lib because Dalena had her IMP interview there and I was meeting Niina. Sarah was there too!! I read up on my pre-lab for ELEC, did a bit of anatomy and just died inside realising how screwed I was for my entire life. 

Went to ELEC lab with Stephen where we fucking SMASHED IT like we knew what we were doing (kinda) and got 5/5 even though we couldn’t really answer the demonstrator’s questions. For once we were helping other people instead of us crawling to them for answers. IT WAS FUN!! Plus the new elec labs have new shiny equipment.

Had a one hour break where I got a sausage sizzle and studied for my PHSL lab. Even PSHL lab was fun today! I love my group HAHHAA they are all so intelligent and everyone seems to know something that no one else knows. And we full discuss all our answers and ugh I JUST LOVE HAVING GROUPS WITH NO FUCKING FOBS.

Finished uni for the day, went to MCIC with Niina for Pitch Fair. I had to leave after 20 minutes but it was fun bantering with Niina and Angela and idk just felt very loved YENNO. 

Now I have no phone, a half filled heart and not keen for IMP interviews tomorrow. SIGH.

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blessed

Thursday

Got to uni at 9 (on 4 hours of sleep), studied with Niina, Amy and Stephen. PHSL is so hard fml. Went to anatomy at 4 where our group won a bag of chocolates because our diagram of the upper/lower respiratory system was the best WOOHOOOOO.

Studied till like 9 pm then went home and talked to amy before going to sleep at 1. I'm going to Daniel Caesar!!! Thanks Andrew for picking up the tickets for me... in Canberra... it all worked out so well. Now furiously studying for his concert.

Friday

Anyway, decided to sleep in (being like 10 am wake up) because 9 ams everyday are legitimately killing my body. Got to histology and was in a bad mood because Jason had to audacity to ignore me and sit with Jasmine XDDDDDDDD HAHAHHA. Anyway, sat with other Jason and had a good time annotating tissue slides. Then went to phsl tute which was so fun cus we just mucked around - shinami started video calling us idk m8. I'm falling behind on uni shit though fml. i'm playing way too much.

Selina finally found the original snap that Ellene storied lmao

Went to Roundhouse with Selina, Joanne, Phuc, Alan and Daren. We didn't drink though... until we got to Jumak HAHAHAHHA. Downed so much soju in such a small amount of time cus VSA always goes so hard. I was sitting next to Michael and he was so kind cus he kept pouring me shots. 

Went to Sanct, was felling very sober and had the most awkward 3 sentence exchange (wouldn't even call it a conversation) with Aivi from State Team. Saw Connie (what's new) and had a nice conversation with Donna!! She's so cute and innocent lol and started telling me about her accutane treatment?!? idk lol but feels bad because she was saying how she tries her best for State Team so that we can all work together as a team idk. 

Anyway, Amy and Stephen came to sanct to a visit a bit then they left and I left shortly afterwards. The alcohol was wearing off whilst I was on the train but for some reason I was super energetic and snapped some of the weirdest shit that appaz potatoes laughed at the next day. I DON'T EVEN KNOW ok.

Saturday

Woke up bright and early to go to my cupcake class in Mosman. Amy and Stephen bought me the class for ONE OF MY VARIOUS BIRTHDAY PRESENTS LMAOOOO.

it was super fun and a bit challenging. Our instructor was kinda not the best BEST BEST teacher but she was a super hip lady. We got like 5 diff piping tips and we learnt how to use each of the them to make diff flowers.

Bought bacon and cheese from baker's delight after. Then went back to amy's house to get ready for Ed Sheeran

Ed Sheeran!!!! 

this was some good wholesome a f fun. He was so energetic and the songs were so good and like we knew 95% of the lyrics so we sang and danced our heart out. Bloodstream was lit as fuckkk it was like a rave. The lights were about to break i s2g they were flashing so much. Went with Andrew, Eugene, Amy, Stephen and FD. Was kinda disappointed he didn't play more songs from Divide but I guess he's a crowd pleaser so just plays the bangers. It was a good concert though.

 

Sunday

Cooked like a soggy book - woke up after like 5 hours of sleep to go to WIESoc training from Amy's house. When my alarm woke me up I yelled "are you fucking serious" cus I was too tired.

Got to training day a bit too early and went to get some coffee with Riya. She's actually seems like aa pretty cool person with normal thoughts and emotions when she's not talking to me about WIESoc related things LMAOOO. i hope she ok though cus shes in the hospital atm for some reason :(

The rest of training day was pretty standard. We played some fun icebreakers and Abe did a one hour spiel about how the WIESoc team should run BUT FK it was so hypocritical of him cus he's not the best team player at times.

LOL met some of the subcomm people and tripped all over my words when I was doing my arc delegate spiel!! 

Had some lunch then went to town hall with lizzie. On the way home we bought some late birthday presents for Kevin Ke and Brenda? Nose senses were fucking fried after smelling 10 diff colognes in the space of 15 minutes. 

Trained back to Amy's house to do some resourcing and make some bomb ass easy mac. Now I'm farting so much fml. 

Went to Newtown for Daniel Caesar. Met up with my cousin and we had dinner at this random ass souvlaki restaurant?? kinda exxy but also super yummy so they're forgiven. Then we went to a park to drink some shitty beers and Smirnoff mixes. 

Daniel Caesar. 

Got there with about 30 mintues of the pre-show to go. Feng was standing in the middle of the crowd with her flashlight up so I grabbed Yuan's hand (I was lit) and just barged through the sea of people. 

ACTUAL CONCERT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LIT.  Enmore theatre is such a small venue so I feel like everyone who went actually wanted to be there yenno. Everyone sang along to every single song and idk you just felt the emotion in the crowd IT WAS AMAZING VIBES. 

Blessed, We Find Love, Best Part and Get You WERE FUCKING MINDBLOWING OMGGGKGJLGLGKJ . He's so good live as well . Yuan was so into it as well HAHAHA he kept screaming and people around us would turn around but he didn't give a single fuck. 

Sad he didn't play streetcar though SIGHSSSS. Also sad I didn't get any merch but we got there a bit late. So keen to go again next time he comes back to Sydney wiew wiew. 

During the concert though I got missed calls from Phuc and Selina. Turns out they were having their huge selection meeting and they wanted my opinion on someone who had interviewed that I knew. So much drama o m g I can't believe the calibre of people that they turned away this year. WHATTA RIP I'm so so so grateful that they gave me a chance last year because if I had tried out this year... laterz. THEY AINT EVEN LETTING ANYONE IN FOR DEVELOPMENTAL REASONS THIS YEAR. GIVE US SOCIALLY ANXIOUS TEENS A FUCKING CHANCE.

guys I STUMPED selina when I was like... you think I bloomed? XD

then I sent her this and unbeknownst to me, Alan and Phuc were watching her laptop screen and APPARENTLY IT WAS KINDA AWKWARD but lmaoooo not as uncomfortable as I was at the VSA dinner on Saturday night when Phuc was drunk and talking about shit he shouldn't be talking about.

Y'ALL NEED SOME POSITIVE DISCRIMINATION

I'm so fkn tired atm. have to wake up in 6 hours I hate my life.

BESS CAMP PHOTOS ARE GETTING RELEASED OMFG im dying

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